Manoa

　　　　　　人生は毎日、変化していく。そして、その人生を変えていくのは他でもない。あなたなのです！ 

私の履歴

　皆さんに私のほんの一部の人生を知って頂き、勇気をもってもらえたらと書きました。これは私の人生の一部で、そこには、皆さんがチャンスを掴む方法や前向きに生きていくヒントが、たくさんあります。それを、lessonで共有できればと思います。

  児童保育指導員として、主に児童・障害児支援に携わりながら、学生の頃にふとしたきっかけで、kickboxingを始める。タイの神様と言われるチャモアペット9冠王が引退したのち、当時所属していたジムで初めて私が指導を受けました。

その後、数々の世界チャンピオンを育成してきた会長にお世話になったりまた、多くの世界チャンピオンから指導を受け練習に励む日々を送り、海外遠征や世界で夢を実現した起業家たちや試合など、決して日本だけに目を向けていたら、出逢えない人たちや経験をさせて頂きました。

　また、テレビ東京のテリー伊藤さんプロデュースboxing番組に、レギュラー出演や番組試合を引き受けます。

試合は判定負けで、眼底出血。様々な困難が立ちふさがり、これを機に引退を決意する。

その後、仕事を続けながら、一から自分で作ったkickエクササイズ・バランスストレッチを約60名に幼児・児童向けにバランスストレッチ指導やkickboxingを小学生～大人までエクササイズも含め3年半指導経験を積みました。

　また、その当時、公設保育施設にて最年少29歳で施設長になるりますが、一旦、kickboxing指導は忙しさもあり辞め、仕事に集中する日々を送る。

しかし、ここでは長くなる為、省きますが、99,99％は経験しない重大な内部告発をしたことで、人生が一遍に変わる。

　強大な組織に正義心だけで立ち向かったことは無謀で、精神的に追い込まれる為、次から次へと退職者が続出していく中、私は最後まで、子ども達を守る為、立ち向かった3年間。

底辺まで落ちる所まで落ちた児童施設をゼロいいえ、マイナスからのスタートから、トップ優良施設へと建て直しました。

しかし同時に、これからと言うときに、3年間ほぼ休むことなく氣力で駆け抜けていた身体に限界がきていたのですが、正義心の塊だった私は、限界を超えても頑張ってしまっていたのです。

（今、思うとそんなに頑張らなくていいんだよ。責任感強すぎでしょ。）ってその時の自分に言いたい位、頑張り過ぎていた自分がいました。

　ようやく仕事が落ち着いた矢先、早朝に39度の高熱とふらつきで倒れてしまい緊急入院。

そのまま隔離・面会謝絶が続く中、約80万～100万人にひとりの１％以下の合併症を発症し、14日間死を彷徨いました。

42度超える高熱がでると、体温計が壊れるのはもちろん、様々な身体機能が破壊されていく。

高熱が続くと、寒くて寒くて手が震え、口が震え、頭が割れそうになり、目を開けて天井を見上げると、目が回っているような感覚に陥る中、ベッドから見えるカーテンの隙間から、鳥のさえずりや朝日や夕日が唯一、私に癒しをくれました。

『あ～今日もわたしは生きている。』って感じられ、ココロの底から嬉しかった。

死を目の前にすると、どんな人でも恐怖や不安を抱いてもおかしくないと思いますが、私はそれよりも決して生きることを、自分のいのちを諦めなかった。

こんな所で負けるか！自分よりもっと苦しんでいる子ども達もいる！だからあきらめるなっていう精神で、日々生きていること・カラダに感謝しながら入院生活を約1か月過ごしました。

退院後は、たった2mも自分の足で歩くこともできない身体になってしまい、治療法もないまま、暗いトンネルから出口が見えず、人生で一番苦しい時期を過ごしていました。

　自分自身の恐れや不安の思考を変えていこうと！勇気を踏み出そうとしますが、一歩下がり、また前へ進む！カメのようにゆっくりと、ゆっくり時間が掛かりました。

その後は、様々な自然療法や東洋医学などの本や講演会などで学んだり、食事や睡眠・身体を芯から温める温熱療法・瞑想・ハーブ療法・気功・湯治・ブリージングストレッチ指導者・アロマセラピーなどschoolで学みました。

　今年で10年目が過ぎ、ようやく心と身体の自己調節・自分の心に無理なく生きていく事の大切さ・自分の意識を変えていく！ことへのアプローチが確立しつつあります。

　私の人生は、誰もが経験したことないような人生だったけど、生きていく智慧を学ばせて頂いたことで、今私にとって人生の財産となり、『呼吸法を意識した、無理なく身体を動かせるストレッチ法やムドラー瞑想をすることで、自分の心を静観し、癒すこと』に繋がると言う事が見い出せたのだと思います。

　また、闘病当時、テレビ東京『生きるを伝える』にも、出演させて頂いたこともあり、自分の中で生きていく方向性を考える分岐点にもなりました。

人生は、毎日、変化していく。そして、その人生を変えていくのは他でもない。あなたです♡

あなたは愛される人であり、あなたは、あなた自身を赦し、愛することができるのです。

My History

I don't like to brag or show off, so I've never talked about it publicly, but I wrote this in the hope that everyone will get to know a small part of my life and be encouraged. This is a part of my life, and there are many hints in it that you can seize opportunities and live positively. I would like to share that in my lessons.

• As a childcare instructor, I mainly work to support children and children with disabilities, but when I was a student, I started kickboxing by chance. After Chamoaphet, the nine-time champion who is said to be the god of Thailand, retired, I received instruction for the first time at the gym I was affiliated to at the time.

After that, I was taken care of by the chairman who has trained many world champions, and I spent my days training under the guidance of many world champions, and I was able to experience people and things I would never have met if I had only looked to Japan, such as overseas expeditions and entrepreneurs who have realized their dreams around the world.

In addition, I will be appearing regularly and competing on a boxing program produced by Terry Ito on TV Tokyo.

The match ended in a loss by decision, and I suffered a retinal hemorrhage. Facing various difficulties, I decided to take this opportunity to retire.

After that, while continuing to work, I gained 3.5 years of experience teaching balance stretching and kickboxing to children, from elementary school students to adults, including exercise.

Also, at the time, I became the youngest director of a public childcare facility at the age of 29, but due to my busy schedule, I quit teaching kickboxing and spent my days concentrating on my work.

However, as this will take too long to explain, my life changed dramatically when I made a serious internal whistleblower incident that 99.99% of people never experience.

It was reckless to stand up to a powerful organization with just a sense of justice, and while one after another people quit because they were driven to the brink, I stood up to the end for 3 years to protect the children.

I took a childcare facility that had fallen to the bottom, and started from zero, no, from a negative point, and rebuilt it into a top-class facility.

But at the same time, just as I was about to start, my body, which had been running almost without rest for three years on willpower, was reaching its limits, but as a bundle of righteousness, I continued to push myself beyond my limits.

(Now that I think about it, you don't have to try so hard. You were just too responsible.) I was pushing myself so hard that I want to tell myself at the time.

Just when my work had finally settled down, I collapsed early in the morning with a high fever of 39 degrees and felt dizzy, and was rushed to hospital.

While I continued to be isolated and denied visitors, I developed complications (which occur in less than 1% of cases, about 1 in 800,000 to 1 million people) and spent 14 days hovering between death and death.

When you develop a fever of over 42 degrees, not only will thermometers break down, but various bodily functions will be destroyed.

As the high fever continued, it was so cold that my hands shook, my mouth trembled, my head felt like it was going to split open, and when I opened my eyes and looked up at the ceiling, I felt dizzy. The only thing that soothed me was the chirping of birds and the morning and evening sunshine, which I could see from the gap in the curtains from my bed.

"Ah, I am alive today too." I thought to myself, and felt deep joy in my heart.

Facing death, I think it is natural for anyone to feel fear and anxiety, but I never gave up on living, on my own life.

I will not lose in a place like this! There are children who are suffering more than me! So I spent about a month in the hospital, grateful every day for being alive and for my body, with the spirit of not giving up.

After I was discharged from the hospital, I was unable to walk even 2 meters on my own two feet, and with no treatment, I could not see the exit from the dark tunnel, and I was going through the most difficult period of my life.

I tried to change my own thoughts of fear and anxiety! I tried to take a courageous step, but I took a step back and moved forward again! It took time, slowly, like a turtle.

After that, I learned from books and lectures on various natural therapies and oriental medicine, and also studied at school about diet, sleep, heat therapy to warm the body from the inside, meditation, herbal therapy, qigong, hot spring therapy, breathing stretch instructor, aromatherapy, etc.

This year marks the 10th year, and I am finally establishing an approach to self-regulation of the mind and body, the importance of living comfortably, and changing my consciousness!

My life has been like no other, but the wisdom I have learned has become a life asset for me, and I believe I have discovered that ``stretching methods that allow you to move your body comfortably while being conscious of breathing techniques and mudra meditation can lead to quietly observing and healing your mind.''

Also, during the time I was battling the illness, I appeared on TV Tokyo's ``Living to Tell,'' which became a turning point for me to think about the direction I wanted to take in life.

Life changes every day. And the person who will change that life is none other than you.♡

You are a person who can be loved, and you can forgive and love yourself.